JUST SAY NO TO DEATH! DEATH IS A PERMANENT SOLUTION TO A TEMPORARY PROBLEM! DON'T LET IT BEAT YOU! THERE IS HELP! THERE ARE OTHER / BETTER OPTIONS! HANG ON! HANG ON!
Heavenly Father and Jesus love you and I am sure many others do too! They want you to make it! YOU CAN MAKE IT!
There have been very dark days for me. Days when I was so
sick and my chemistry so sideways- I kept feeling terror and like my brain was
shutting down, I couldn’t control my body, my sadness was so great, my stress
was over the top, my brain felt like a
“buzz” going on in my head.
I just remember so many times and especially last year
before I found the treatment that is finally working….
I was sitting on the bathroom floor one day, wondering if
the only relief to this pain was death; Holding a .40 mil bullet round in my
hand, rolling it in my fingers, wondering if it would be better off served if I
put it in my head.
But I could never figure out a way to do it that would not
hurt my family and friends left behind. I had seen suicide before as a youth,
people I knew who decided to check out early. I knew what that felt like for me
to be left behind and I vowed to never do that to myself nor my family and
friends, no matter how bad the pain got.
The truth of the matter is though, I didn’t want to die, I
just wanted the pain to stop.
-Shauna
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